I am SO TIRED of not feeling good enough. I'm sick of catching a glimpse of myself and thinking: "Ew, of course he doesn't like you, you're f***ing disgusting".
I'm so angry that I let some egotistical moron ruin my confidence and comfortability at the gym.
I'm so angry that my self confidence has been ruined again.
I think I have a beautiful face. I think it's just disgusting on my fat, ugly body. I'm 168cm and 87kg so could be worse but I look like an awkward fat person and I'm sick of it. I want to be desirable. I want to be wanted. Sh*t I WANT guys to look at me and think "Yep, I'd do her". Even if I don't want to do it.
Urghhhhhhhhhhhhh. Vent over.