I just wanted some advice/debrief about how I have been feeling lately.
I have been feeling increasingly frustrated that I am limited in what I can do in my life because of my mental health issues. I feel fragile and scared to push myself for fear of having another breakdown. I am not currently having issues with anxiety but maybe a little depression hanging around. I have recently moved house, sold our previous house while at the same time working part time and looking after my increasingly active 18mth old DD. I feel like I have been running on adrenaline but now am coming down to normal life.
I have obviously been under a lot of pressure recently and as a result have been physically sick 3 times I have been very moody and feeling very flat. I am getting frustrated as I realise that I can't do the things I want to do - like staying busy or consider working more - as I am sure that I would get sick again. I always feel that I need a lot of downtime to keep my brain healthy - something which is hard to do with my DD. I am also considering having another child but am really scared that I would suffer from severe AND again or not manage with 2 children.
I don't like the thought of these conditions controlling me
I am not sure if this makes sense but if has definitely helped just writing this down ... I am hoping this will help me understand my feelings so I can explain them to my dh.
Thanks to anyone who reads this
I posted this in the private section but it seems pretty quiet in there...