hey girls, sorry I've been MIA lately. Had a fair bit going on since I last posted.
Zakmick - I am so sorry to hear about your recent miscarriage. I was hoping you had it in the bag this time.
MCG - your doc sounds the same as mine. He isn't Gareth Weston at Monash, by any chance?
Bellavista - welcome to the thread!
As for me - we met with 4 other FS for a second opinion, I guess I was hoping for someone to pinpoint an exact cause/reason and give me renewed hope, but alas, they all said the same thing - we are just incredibly frikken unlucky, and that my current FS had done everything right. After meeting with them all, we decided to persist with our current FS as we believed he is still the best. They all just said it's now a numbers game and we just have to keep playing along. I don;t want to play anymore!!! So... we went for our 4th fresh cycle with ICSI - only change was the HA-ICSI and a swap to Cetrotide instead of orgalutran. DH got a kick out of mixing drugs but I responded fairly poorly. I had one dominant follie that we had to watch so couldn't give the others a chance to grow. Collected 11 eggs of which we got 2 blastocyts. I seem to always have a mini genocide at day 4, where my numbers drop by more than 75% overnight. One sent for CGH testing and we chucked the other in. Had my BT this morning but the HPTs indicate no luck. So once again, we're back to the drawing board.
We meet with FS again in 3 weeks so might discuss a long down-reg cycle and testing for the 'witchcraft' NK cells, because what else can we do!?
It's suprising how OK I feel, I think I'm just numb now. Although, having a coffee with DH after BT this morning and a toddler looked up and smiled at me, so I burst into tears. Perhaps, not doing as well as I thought.
Do you ladies believe in detox/naturopathy? We are both pretty healthy and fit, my only real weakness is red wine and chocolate, but am thinking that's just another thing I might have to give up in this quest.... why not take ALL the enjoyment out of life, eh? Am so sick of life being on hold...