I'm devastated that I gave in to your promise of plenty sleep and a content little baby! I'm devastated that I allowed myself to believe that someone without children could possibly know what it takes for a mother to listen to her child cry. I'm devastated that even as a health professional, I allowed myself to believe you when you have no credible research-based evidence to back up your methods.
I researched online before starting your routine and I succumbed to the stress caused by the availability of so much information and thought that the only way I would know if it worked, was to just try it.
So try it I did.
How could I be so stupid as to believe that every single baby can be programmed into a specific routine?!
Why did I think it was ok for my baby to cry (no, not 'protest', cry!) himself to sleep?
Why, if what your saying is so good, was I crying at the end of the day feeling like a terrible mother because I'd walked round my street several times trying to keep my very tired and upset little boy awake.
I watched the tears stream down his face as if to beg me just to let him sleep.
How can he trust me when he is crying and I'm trying to reassure him but avoiding eye contact with him?
Everyone knows a liar avoids eye contact, even babies.
I believe that in sacrificing so much, it's possible to get babies into your routine; there's certainly many fans of your methods praising you here, there and everywhere....
However, I'm genuinely concerned that those fans will be the future's evidence of why vulnerable new mothers should not follow your rules.
You haven't been around long enough for people to see the long term effect of your methods.
In the meantime, I've set fire to your book.
I cuddle my precious little boy when he needs cuddled. He's not going to need cuddled to sleep forever. He won't be waking up for night feeds forever. And i can rest as peacefully as i need to knowing that if he wakes, its because he needs something, and as his mother, the person who decided to bring him into the world, it's my responsibility to make sure his needs are met.
The human body is a wonderful thing... why was I naive enough to think that his little body won't one day work out what 'routine' is best for him?
I hope women read this and know what they are risking by starting Tizzie Hall's routines. And i hope you have a good lawyer in 15 years time when the damage becomes apparent.