So this pregnancy hasn't been the easiest. Aside from still having morning sickness at 24 weeks, fatigue and bad SPD... It's been a worry filled 5+ months. First we had a couple significant bleeds in the first tri, due to a subchorionic hematoma.. Which thankfully resolved itself by my Morph scan at 19 weeks.. But only to find out then that I had a Grade 4 Placenta Previa. I know they usually say low lying placentas can move up as u progress, but mine is positioned in such a way (cervix is smack bang in the middle of placenta) that the doctor at the u/s place and locum OB (my usual OB was on leave) both said they doubted my placenta would move. So any consideration of a VBac went out the window.. Which I was fine with. My first c-sec was great, seeing bub from behind the curtain, first moments with bub skin to skin.. I loved every minute of it. I also managed to come to terms with the fact that I may have a few more bleeding episodes due to the previa.
But then more bad news. I saw my OB yesterday, and he's recommending I do my c-section under GA - My placenta is attached very close to my previous c-sec scar, so I'm at risk for Placenta Accreta. He's predicting I'll have a lot of bleeding, and it's safer for me to go under GA. Also, if it is Accreta, he says 90% chance I'll have a hysterectomy, and he wanted me to be prepared for the possibility. Plus he's predicting I'll have a few major bleeds before bub is due, with possibly a stint of bed rest in hospital, so now I'm all scared over the Previa situation again.
It was a lot to take in. First I'm so disappointed that I'll miss out on my little girl's first moments in this world.. I know the GA is the safer option and I'm ok with that, but it's still disappointing. Second, I'm scared of having like a huge gush of blood or something, and just not being able to handle it, have a massive freak out etc
Third, the thought of a hysterectomy terrifies me. Plus we really wanted no. 3.. don't get me wrong, I'm grateful to be able to have kids at all, couple yrs ago we didn't think we'd get here.. But after being able to successfully get pregnant thru IVF, I just assumed I would have the 3 kids we wanted.
I know it's too early to be stressing about the worse case scenario.. it's just taking me a while to digest all the news I guess.. Sorry about the vent but needed to get it out. And was hoping someone would have positive thoughts or stories to share..