Tonight DD started to cry and called me back into her room, and when i went in there she was really upset about her sore tummy, i gave her a cuddle and calmed her down, and as she was settling i said I hope she has a good night and her tummy doesnt play up. She looked at me and said Mummy im sorry i didnt let you sleep last night.
Now sleep is not a regular thing in this house, and that is fine yes some nights worse than others, but i dont make a fuss about it around DD its just life but obviously last night she could see my frustration and it obviously has played on her mind for her to bring it up tonight it makes me sad for her, It shouldnt be something a little one has to think about.
I then led in her gigantic cot with her and cuddled her back to sleep and thought to my self OMG I shouldnt ever get upset with her for keeping me up all night, sh*t there has been times i have sat next to her on the ward and in the ED and recovery thinking PLEASE just wake up, wake up and yell at me wake up and scream wake up and keep me up all day and all night, wake up and scream for your dummy do anything just wake up.
It got me thinking how as parents we shouldnt be upset if they wake us up loads of times in stead shouldnt we be thankful that they do.
Its certainly made me re evaluate my thinking on the whole thing thats for sure.
I love my girl to the moon and bad and am so thankful to have her here