I think I understand. I only have 4 children but so much of me has gone into them, that now they don't need me so much , I am really struggling to work out who I am.
A big part of that has been my physical changes too. I put on a small amount of weight throughout my productive years, but since #4 stopped breastfeeding over 3 years ago I have struggled to look after me and have gained a huge amount of weight. Once my body stopped having a function, I no longer valued it.
Now when I look in the mirror I no longer recognise myself. I can't and don't want to go back to who I was before kids, but I don't yet know who the future me is.
Sorry that turned into a long sob story about me! But I think I understand. Now that your body no longer has a 'purpose' it's hard to find a reason to look after it.
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