Having recently found out I am pregnant with #3 - which has come as a HUGE shock, I am already fearing the labour! Both DD1 and DS2 where birth centre babies - 11- 12 hour labors but my labor with DS was terrible! Nothing went really wrong and I had him naturally but the pain of it was horrendous and is still very much with me. I don't want an epidural as I want a water-birth ( as with DD not DS as didn't work out). DS was a big baby at 4.32kg with a huge head so it was going to be harder but I felt totally out of control and it was just a horrible an rather traumatic experience. How can I avoid this again? How can I try and not be anxious about it? Anyone whose 2nd labor was worse then the 1st - who has gone on to a third? What was the third like? I always said I would never go drug-free again but I never thought I would really have make the decision again - and in my heart, I really do want another water-birth.