Last week I decided to wean my 12 month DD, I was pregnant so supply had been dropping, and am going away for work in a month for a few days so would be unable to bf her during that trip (she doesn't take a bottle/cup). The timing seemed perfect.
The day after weaning I found out I had a missed miscarriage. Had a d&c the following day and now a week later I am feeling sad to have lost two very special things in one week.
I am thinking of reintroducing a morning feed, but the motivation is probably 50% for me and 50% for my DD - she always loved bf. I am concerned that when she starts again she will want to bf more often, which I guess is ok but I am so thankful not to have to feed her to sleep anymore and prefer to keep it that way. I have loved the freedom of not bf but I miss it every day.
Also I don't want to confuse her as I will be going away for that trip and also i want to fall pregnant again as soon as possible, which will likely mean weaning again in a few months (if we are lucky to get pg again soon).
I am rambling, I guess what I want to know is do I go with my heart and start feeding her again, or go with my head? I think I know the answer but I suppose I need to hear it from someone else.
Thanks in advance for the advice