I have 2 sons - 11yrs and 8 weeks.
When i was pregnant with DS2 and i found out i was having a boy I was devistated!! I cried for days!! and it took me weeks and weeks to go shopping for boy stuff and choose a name because I didn't want another boy!! My husband was mad at me and told me I needed help!! Anyway, I accepted the fact I had to buy blue and I was having another boy and now he's 8 weeks old and beautiful.
However I still dream of having a girl. and i don't know if i want to try again and risk having another boy... i think it would send me into a depression!!
I was really upset when i found out a friend was having a girl... and i didn't see her for a few months, but then when I had DS2 she started her maternity leave and wanted to catch up for coffee to meet him and then she invited me over to her house for lunch last week because she had lots of questions about labour and baby because this is her first bub... when i got there she was so excited and showed me her baby room - of course everything was pink and she had the most beautiful clothes etc... I came home and cried because I really want that for me!! Well, she had her baby yesterday and last night when I got the pic txt through announcing it I couldn't help but feel jealous!! I told my hubby and he just said "you're a f'n idiot" and i went to sleep in tears!!
This morning she's announced her baby all over facebook and I feel so jealous... i don't know how to stop feeling this way and i feel bad for feeling this way.... i don't even know if i want to go and see them...
how do i stop feeling this way??? i don't know what to do!!!