hey all!i'm wanting to talk /listen about my own & others journeys through PND & what you did or would recommend to over come it..
i'll start by introducing myself, i'm a young mum (19) of two (my daughter is 2 & son is 7 months) and it all started after my daughter was born & me being so young i thought it would go away. i was determined to breast feed, and raise my daughter the way i thought would be best but the 'in laws' had other plans. my 'sister in law' came home with us when we left the hospital (we had a bit of trouble feeding and latching there) & straight away stopped at a chemist, bought back the tin of formula, that was the end of breastfeeding. i felt hurt and really sad actually that i couldn't just bond with my baby but everyone else got to as well.. it was hard for me to speak up, i didn't have the courage. months went by and they were always trying to get in my business & take over then it really got bad. my 'mother in law' invited my partner over to talk, when he got home i was not happy with what he said, my MIL had stated that MY DAD wouldn't be the good type of person around my kids (without meeting him) & she said i ignore my own daughter, i snapped.. i told them all here to go and things started getting easier. then i found out i was pregnant again, i was having troubles with friends & family stuff going on so i wasn't really excited about it like i thought i would be.. the time came & i gave birth to my little boy, that changed everything i was excited & couldn't believe i was doing it all over again.
well recently everything's gone back to the way it was with the 'in laws' they constantly bicker, tell me i'm hiding the kids from them all because i don't want to catch a bus there (i don't drive, but they do) they never speak to us unless it's a birthday or christmas (i think families should be a little more involved than that) plus all my friends pretty much disowned me, my family problems have come back up, my son barely sleeps he usually wakes up every hour or 2 & i get no support from my partner, he tells me he's sick of my attitude my moods and that i am not fun anymore.. i don't know how much i can handle, i barely leave my house i can't be bothered doing house work, i just feel so drained..
sorry for going on, but thanks for listening..
any advice or stories would really help xxx