First up let me say if anyone tells me to be grateful to have a healthy baby I will kick them in the balls.
So i found out this morning I'm having a girl. I really wanted another boy, but was pretty sure it would be a girl, so I thought I was prepared, and I would be ok. I was ok this morning and now i can't stop crying. I hate how happy everyone is for me, people are acting like a girl is so way more exciting than a boy. I guess it's because i already have a DS so people assume I want one of each, but I'm getting lots of comments like 'oh I can't wait to start shopping for her'. No-one bought my DS anything! Well, presents and stuff of course but no-one got crazy excited about it. I'm feeling resentful for this baby, like she's going to come along and DS will get pushed aside because he's just a boring boy when he's the light of my life. And i feel guilty because i feel like I won't be able to love her enough.
I just needed to get that out. DP won't understand so i don't want to tell him.
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