Freaked out! :( -feel like a terrible mother

[SpaghettiMonster]

I'm currently freaking out. A few days ago I realized that I had missed my period which I should have had two weeks ago but at the time both DS and I had gastro so I just didn't think about it. Then I thought back and remembered that I didn't get my period before that either but again I had been sick (had the cold) and whenever I've been sick around the same time my period was due it would either be really late or not show so I guess I didn't notice then either.

So I took 2 pregnancy tests. 1 is a very faint positive and the other didn't work as DS came in and startled me so I didn't do it right.

I have an appointment at the doctors tomorrow to find out for sure.

I am so scared. I mean I do want another baby but the plan was to wait until DS was at least 2.5yo. He is only 16 months at the moment.

Plus we have so much going on in our lives right now. DP wants to find another job after tax time because his current job isn't paying him much. We really need a new car and have needed one for a few years now. DP is about to start court proceedings to get access of his youngest DD. Then there is some issues with his oldest DD also involving court.

Then I am freaking out as there is plenty of things I probably shouldn't have done if I am pregnant. I dont smoke or drink but I do have a glass of soft drink every night during dinner. Or I've had subway and sausages. DS has jumped on my stomach a number of times. And I've been taking the pill every day.

The fact that I have been on the pill has confused me so much. I though there was no chance of this happening because I have been taking the pill.

I havnt had any symptoms, well at least none that I noticed before but now it's like I should have realized. Like I have felt sick a few times but there was always another explanation for it -long car ride, having a cold, eating too fast, or one night I felt really sick but it was after finding out some very disturbing emotional news about a loved one. But with DS I had signs straight away and was sick 24/7 during the first trimester.

And I dont know how DP is going to react either. He sometimes says he doesn't want another child (he does have 4 already) and then other times he says he does. He is very confusing. I told him about missing my period but said I didn't want to stress until I knew for sure so we left it there.

I just don't know how I could not have noticed this earlier

Guess I can't do anything until after the doctors appointment tomorrow and go from there. Going to try to spend the rest of the day not thinking about it because it'll just stress me out more.

[V8]

Sounds very full on, don't beat yourself up though, I wish you all the best even though it's not what you were expecting I hope it turns out for the best.

[headoverfeet]

I recently had an UP it was such a shock for me too we weren't ready either DD was only 11 months (we have done the small age gap thing before so knew it was not for us again). I guess my advice is to let the emotions flow and to take time to let the news sink in regardless of what you decide to do I found Bubhub a great support

[anewme]

I have had a surprise pregnancy at what I thought was the wrong time (eg dd doing senior school, going off to uni etc) It all worked out in the end and we now have the most beauitful baby boy.

[MothersMilk]

I am pregnant atm and it was also unplanned so i can relate to how you are feeling. I was 8 weeks before i realised i was pregnant and have huge guilt that i wasn't looking after myself very well and terribly confused as to how i was even pregnant when we had been safe.
I won't lie, it has 2 weeks now and i am still struggling with the pregnancy. I am a bit of denial still (because if i think too much about it i get very stressed) but have started to accept and even warm to the idea.

[MamaC]

its a lot to take in!
I wouldn't worry about the soft drink and food, seriously don't sweat it. I'm sure what you have eaten/drunk won't have harmed bub.
As for how this happened, you may have missed a dose due to vomiting when you had gastro?

There's no harm in sitting with this info until the blood test results come back before telling your partner. Try not to worry about his reaction, he might surprise you and be thrilled

[Nemmi]

Soft drink, subway and snags i would not worry about.

Illness can interfer with the pill, bub is very cushioned inside you xx.

Good luck at the doctors,

With my first bub i found out 3 weeks after my lmp and did everything right and lost it.

With my ds i did a test, it came back negative so i went out drinking with friends, 1 week later i got the positive.

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[MothersMilk]

How are you going today SpaghettiMonster?

[SpaghettiMonster]

How are you going today SpaghettiMonster?

Ok. Had lots of things to keep my mind busy.

Just waiting to see the doctor now.

If I am pregnant I would be ok with it. It's just the shock as like I've said I've been on the pill