That is the question I have been asking myself the last few days.
I have a dd (2yr 8mth) and I really just don't want to be around her lately, I hate being a mum.
Even just writing that breaks my heart.
But I would love to be left alone.
I don't know what I am trying to say or ask really.
But I have had this on off feeling of not wanting to be around her since she was born, even when they showed her to me I just looked at her and thought "oh" I didn't have that rush of love like I hear so many other mums have.
One minute I want her to go away then the next I'm giving her hugs and kisses.
And now we are thinking of having another child but is it wrong to have another child just to provide a sibling? Deep down I don't think I want another one but know I will regret it if I don't have one.
Is this what motherhood is meant to be like?
I know I should talk to someone but Im always told that my problems aren't really that bad.
Sorry for my rambling post but these thoughts have been going around my mind for two weeks and I had to get them out!