This is really just a vent on how I am feeling as I need to get it out.
I had DS 8 months ago by emergency C/S under GA due to developing pre-eclampsia and HELLP syndrome. I know it was the only option as my body was shutting down quickly and DS was also struggling a bit.
A friend of mine gave birth the other day, vaginally, natural, basically exactly the way I had envisioned DS birth going.
I know that things don't always turn out the way we want them too and everything happens for a reason and I am forever grateful that I have my gorgeous happy healthy little boy but I guess it just seems unfair to me in this instance as said friend has smoked the whole way through her pregnancy, is overweight & didn't really seem to look after herself yet I did everything to stay healthy and my body failed me. It just hurts and it sucks I missed out on those precious first few hours with my baby. Don't get me wrong I don't think that she shouldn't have had a great birth it just hurts and makes me feel really envious.