Well my 17mo has a black eye.
So my little girls is prone to wind up in DR surgeries, ER..
Only last week I posted on here telling all about our scary night we had with her in hospital.
She can be very curious... All it takes is for me to turn my head for 30 seconds and she is in what feels like a life or death situation.
So on Saturday I was hanging up the washing, DD was outside with me.
She wonders around the garden etc
This is a daily thing. I usually let her run free and play whilst hanging up the washing. This was the only time i never stressed about what she will do next every 5 seconds.
We have an out door setting, big table.. You get the idea.
I never thought this was something to "Baby Proof" so to speak because.. Well.. Its a table! Not to mention slowly our house is getting more and more empty as things have been put away or up way to high for eyes to see because of my curious little girl.
Any way back to the story..
So I'm hanging out the washing, I couldn't see dd. Yes, big mistake on my part.. I should know better with a monkey for a child
This is usually fine as I'm just thinking she must be in her sand pit as I could hear her babbling to herself.
I usually pop my head around the corner every so often when hanging up washing to double check she is doing ok.
Next thing I hear a loud crash and this horrible cry.. You know the kind of cry that stops your heart?
Makes you drop everything and run to the sound of the cry.. And before you even see what the crying is from your already crying your self? Well it was that type of situation.
I find dd on the ground (cement) and a big flower pot that was in the middle of the table, off the table and dirt everywhere.
Now I didn't see how this unfolded but it was pretty obvious she has climbed up on one of the chairs, gotten on the table and grabbed the Flower pot.. Somehow tried to get down off the table with the flower pot.. That's my best guess.
Either was dd had hit her head HARD and it was another trip to our local DR.
No concession (thank god) but he said her head would be very sore and he could see a bruise brewing on her forehead.
Fast forward to Sunday morning.. She wakes up with a massive! And I mean huge black eye!
Called our dr Monday morning who said bumps to head/face can often cause blood to pool around the eye and cause a black eye even if the eye wasn't hit.
Putting all the events together from Saturday.. The black eye is a result from the fall.
Now I was prepared for the horrible looks when going into public.. If I had it my way I would keep her inside until the bruising went down.. But I need to go to important appointments this week.. A family birthday dinner.. Just things that you can't postpone and as a mother your child goes with you most of the time.
I thought I was prepared for the stairs.. The horrid looks.. Possible questions from strangers etc.
My thinking was, if I seen a young toddler with a large black eye I would most likely look too!
It's not the best look for a child to have. And not the most ideal place for a child to have a bruise.
But of course.. Today I had someone (a stranger) give me a lecture.. Asking me for my name..
She looked just about ready to rip my dd out of my arms!!
Needless to say I'm quite worried now..
I know it's a good thing there are people out there looking out for children who are not in ideal homes etc.
But that's far from what my dd has.
Maybe I am a bad mum because all the accidents seem to keep happening now matter how much I try and watch her or how many times I try and remove dangerous things from the house.. Somehow I manage to stuff up and dd gets into dangerous situations.
Everyone who watches dd, her daycare she goes to once a week all say how much of a handful she can be with putting herself in hurtful situations so quickly.
It's all really starting to get to me.. I'm wondering what it is that I seem to do wrong.
Yes one can say "watch her more carefully" but honestly I do.
It's actually quite stressful to have to pretty much hold on to her all the time in fear.
And then I'll go to the toilet.. Hang out the washing.. Go to get something out of a different room and come back to find her bouncing off the walls.. Up on things she had climbed.. I could go on..
Really needed to vent this all out.
I have to go out again this afternoon to get some forms signed and im now stressing about looks and snickers.. Or more lectures.
Its all getting very exhausting and gets me really worried.
*breath in and out* *breathe in and out*