I am more of a reader than poster, but just really need to offload right now.
Today I found out my secure job of 12 years with the Qld state government is no more and my position will be transitioned into the private sector.
I am worried sick as my job role in the private sector pays significantly less and shift arrangements are not compatible with my custody arrangements. So I will need to find another job. I know I am going to struggle to find a job that pays as well as the one I have now and I worry I won't be able pay my financial commitments, mortgage and provide for my daughter.
My townhouse has dropped in value since I bought and I have a fixed rate mortgage. If I was to sell, I would gain some serious debt and throw away all I've worked so hard for.
Today I was feeling ok about it and thinking that this is an opportunity for change and that things will work out. But tonight it's hit real hard and I have been a sobbing mess.
I am independent and have spent the last few years gaining confidence that I can provide for myself and my girl. But it's times like this that being single sux and I wish I had someone to share the burden with. Sometimes it just feels so hard to face this stuff alone :-(