I had my first baby last week and I hind myself always crying when I am alone.
I don't know if it has to do with the birthing experience. I went to hospital for a planned induction due to baby big size hopefully I didn't need to have c section if I didn't have baby after 40 weeks. Unfortunately the whole thing ended up being an emergency c section.
Then things saw of went down hill from there... Not enough milk, bb difficult to settle, no sleep, not much support from family and in law for breast feeding ... Etc.
My DH still on parental leave I don't think I would be able to cope when he gets back to work. Last night baby cried for 12 hours, I tried everything and nothing worked. I tried to call the 24 hours help line I couldn't get through. I was so helpless..... I was so close of having a nervous breakdown.