So my husband and I have just come out of our fourth failed IVF ICSI cycle and have been told that there is only one more chance to use our eggs or we could make the choice to move onto Donor eggs straight away.
We have a friend who has offered to be a donor and I am completly comfortable with the donor path but I just want to make sure that we make a choice that we are happy with and will never look back and say 'what if'. Our FS would like to give another ICSI cycle a go and add Saizen as well as Luveris to the stimm part of the cycle, but there is no guarantee that it will help with my bad eggs (they are always immature - GV at EPU but mature 12-24hrs after. Our fertilization rate after is also bad and we cant get them past the 8 cells stage).
I have so many thoughts running through my mind. Yesterday I was definitely not doing another IVF cycle (I just couldnt go through the emotional turmoil again with no guarantee) and kept thinking 'maybe there is a reason I cant use my eggs'. What if i did try another cycle and it worked but the baby had a disability because of my bad eggs, i could never forgive myself as I could have had a healthy baby with good eggs. Today I have been researching success stories where Saizen has been used and how it works and im confused as to which option we should now choose. It might be good to point out that DH is pro donor eggs as he doesnt want to see me go through all the crap again (mostly emotional) if the success rate is low/unknown with Saizen.
There is also the financial side of it. A donor cycle would cost around $10000 and there are better odds of success with our donor (she has had three healthy pregnancies) or we could spend an extra $2500 on top of our normal cycle fees ($6000 total OOP) with a very low/unkown success rate. I just don't want to waste any more money.
I guess im just asking for your thoughts to help me make a very tough decision...It would be very helpful to here from other ladies who have had to face this very tough decision and what their out comes were.