My three children were attending a local Day Care Centre from early 2011 until a few months ago. Their ages at the time were 1,2 and 3 years old. In November last year, I went to pick them up and was met by the CEO (it's a Community based Centre), who gave me a letter.
The general idea of this letter was that a Staff member (unnamed) was fired and reported to the Police for dealing with children (no room or anything given) in a manner unbecoming a Staff member.
I immediately asked what exactly that meant and was told that because it was a police matter, he couldn't give me any information. It has remained that way to this day, basically "no comment".
So the next week I paid attention to who was no longer at the Centre and it was easy to figure out that it was the male who worked in the 0 - 2 age group primarily. Alarm bells started to ring but information was impossible to gain and I thought it might not have been as serious as I thought and let it go.
Then last week it has all come out in the local papers that a male child care worker went to court and pled guilty to two charges in relation to sexual fondling (and whatever else they couldn't publish) and indecent dealings with two children in his care. I had no doubt that it's my son's carer, they named the age group, his position, and the date that he was reported. They all match. They can't say his name or the Centre's name.
The headlines scream "Pedophile released with slap on the wrist" - "Child Care Pedophile released on suspended sentence" - that kind of thing. There are letters in the paper every day screaming at the light sentence and demanding justice for the children he was caring for.
I am so, so upset about all this. Can I describe to you how sick I feel? How I can't sleep? All I can think about is how my children were the first in the Centre in the mornings and how often I left them in his sole care. How he would OFFER to change their nappies or take them to the toilet. Can you imagine what I'm thinking? I trusted him - and he might have done something (and chances are, he did do something) to one or all of my babies.
You know the worst part? I know his name. I know his address. I know the car he drives. I know who he is and what he looks like. I saw him at the shopping Centre!! I want to tell everyone his name, but more than that, I want to hurt him. I want to run into him again now so that I can scream out his name and point to him and yell to everyone that it was him!! He's the child care pedophile - and see what happens when people know! I want to keep a baseball bat in my car and smash his windows and headlights and scare him to death! That's what I would like to do.
Now what? How do I accept this? They have said the gov't is trying to appeal his case because of the public outcry to try to get him some jail time. But that might not happen. So I'm thinking of making his name publicly known - through facebook, anonymous notes, emails to the paper etc. I want him to suffer somehow. Why should he get away with this?? It's just not fair.
Please give me anything... support, advice, anything - help me be at peace with this because it's just tearing me up inside.