ok im not the type to winge but i need to get this all out before i have a mental break down and end up in the corner talking to myself!
im 24 have a DS who is 17 months old and DP who i love both unconditionally but other than that there is nothing else in my life i love!
im home 24/7 i dont have a licence (tramatic experiance when i was younger trying to get over it) i cook, i clean i do everything a "Perfect" housewife should do never get a thank you or anything for the things i do.
i have no friends, i tried to make friends but there is none to be made in my area. family dont live close so i cant go see them. im seriously going insane!
i have no one to vent to when i have a bad day i have no one to just talk to except my DS who cant have a conversation with. I basically only have my DP to talk to and he is always to tired after work to carry on a conversation.
i mean there is NO ONE for me to talk to at all!
my DP sufferes from epilepsy and he seems to think that he dont have fits cause of the fact he does weed every now and then. (never does it at home i will never allow that stuff into the house) and im the one who always looks after him and always sees him have the fits and there so emotinal draining. i always get angry when he wakes up cause why cant he fricken just stop the weed so that i dont have to see his eyes roll into the back of his head and him not have injurys from having a fit! i mean i quit smoking after like 10 years the day i found out i was pregnant but he cant stop cause he likes to relax. well i would love to relax but no i have everything on my ffricken mind!!!
i just dont know what to im just sick of my life except for my DS and some parts of my DP! I FEEL LIKE A ZOMBIE!!
i could vent for hours and hours but need to let a little out just to survive the rest of the day.
better get back to my somewhat called life