My ex is like a drug to me - I just can't stay away. I never ever stopped thinking about him after we broke up both times. It's been 6 months exactly today since we split up the second time.
He isn't comfortable with seeing me yet, and he's admitted that he finds it hard to trust me after everything that's happened in the past. He told me I can't keep screwing him over cos he doesn't deserve that which is fair enough. I told him we don't have to rush into anything, and that I didn't try hard enough last time, because I didn't. It was hard having a relationship with him and not living together though, as the first time we lived together from 3 months until I left him 7 years later.