I struggle with confrontation and don't deal to well when things go pear shaped.
When ever I think about not talking to them I feel upset that I would be taking dd out of their lives and they won't get to see her grow up.. It's stupid I know! And I hate hate hate feeling like that. I wish I was one I those people who just couldn't give a hoot and tell them to **** off.
I know I should just stop talking to them, and not care any more.. But for me it's hard to do that.
I am absolutely exhausted, Somedays the stress of it makes me physically sick. like last night I got so worked up about what they said about dd when I was telling Dh about it I threw up from getting my self into such a state. suppose you could almost call it a panic attack
I just feel like I have so much anger inside me and it's taking over.
DH has already told them to get stuffed... Dh suggested last night that I see a counselor to try and find ways to deal with the anger and get professional advise on what I should do in the situation and how to let go with out feeling sad or guilty.
I do agree with him, but then I feel angry at the fact I have to go see a counselor to try and cope with his parents bullsh!t.
Im so confused right now.
My dr agreed to let me try and come off my anti-depressants 4 months ago, I have been on them for 7 years and I have been doing excellent in every other area of my life with out them, I don't get upset or depressed over things that I use to etc.
But every time I think of his parents I want to scream.. So you can imagine what my stress levels are at when I'm over their or reading an email/text from them..
I honestly feel like their effecting my health.
My Dh hasn't been supportive in the past, he would just try and agree with his parents to avoid the anguish they would unleash on him, but for a few years now he has been extremely supportive of me.
He has his moments, but when it comes to his parents he extremely supportive.