Our baby passed away 3 weeks ago and I only had a D&C on tuesday last week. But all I can think about is getting pregnant. I would have been 10 weeks on this tuesday and its killing me. The pregnancy was not planned. In fact i was horrified to be expecting our 4th baby. But now i cant imagine life without another little one in our tribe.
Im one of 6 kids and DH is one of 4 (sister passed away at birth though), so big families are the norm for us. I had gotten used to the idea of another and was so excited. Had picked out a cot, pram, change table etc. already.
Only thing standing in the way is hubby. He is down right refusing to even talk about it or consider it. I feel like my heart is breaking over this. I was happy at 3. I am half way through uni and we are hoping to buy a home in the next 2-3 years. But i dont want that anymore. I want a baby more than anything. I dont know if its just because we lost one so recently and its how i am coping ith my grief or what.
I am ment to be writing an assignment right now, but im on here thinking about babies and looking at other peoples posts about expecting their 4th. I feel like a woman possessed!!