Clem my dear buddy! Of course this is THE thread for you right now. I spend so much time avoiding all the cycling threads for similar reasons.
I am also on the 40+ thread. That's about it. Plus a few buddies I PM with.
It must be extremely hard not to feel negative right now. I totally get it. I have had 1 stim and 1 failed FET with the 'non defrosty" so find it hard to feel positive too. By most standards it is early days for me. Yet look what you have faced. Even more than me, and I feel 'precious'.
I think it is wise to back off from Dr Google. The thing to focus on is that statistics measure ALL cases and represent averages not individuals. You are an individual, and that is how tyour FS will cater an IVF plan for you. Your FS will do everything they can, so don't quit on your dreams just yet.
Sure, it is tough when friends are pregnant, but in life we truely can't compare to others, only live our own life on our own path. Even if we don't choose to be on that particular path.
When's the biopsy? Results?
That shows extreme immaturity. After all my DS is one of the most gentle caring people around, and one of my DDs is as tough as nails and a real ball breaker. So stereotyping based on biology is just plain dumb. At the end of the day why does anyone think a particular gender of child will give them what "THEY WANTED?" What THEY wanted? what about letting the child be their own self regardless of their gender? Why should a child have to live up to the expectations of being a particular gender? weird to me... Anyway as you can see I think stuff like that is ridiculous. Give me healthy and happy any day.
How you feeling in general?