I'm a new mum of a gorgeous eight week old girl who I love dearly (of course). But I never could have imagmined how difficult this whole motherhood thing could be. Don't get me wrong - I knew it was going to be a challenge, but I guess I am more surprised at how I have handled this new life. I am normally a well-organised, down to earth, easy going person and I am a nurse with a little experience in paediatrics, so why do I feel completely incompetent and unworthy and am constantly on the verge of tears??
Everyone keeps telling me to get into a routine - how is that possible with a child who feeds every two to four hours, who refuses to sleep through the day and who cries every time she is put down into her crib??
I thought mothering came instintively and that the moment your child was born you formed an instant bond with her. While I am awestruck and fascinated by my daughter, being a mother can be frustrating at times - I am still trying to figure out what her diffirent cries mean, have become obsessed with how many mls she has each feed and am on edge before each clinic visit, praying that she is gaining weight.
Thanks for letting me vent - while my other half is great and very understanding, I think it's difficult for him to truly appreciate what I am going through.