I'm a little nervous about it. We went to see him tonight and the doctor explained that they will put him on a machine which will keep him alive, they will then take veins out of his groin area and use those veins to do the triple bypass.
He will then be in ICU on this machine to keep him alive for a bit then let his heart take over.
I might sound naive but I didn't think it was like that, the surgery. I thought they would just do it like keyhole. I know dumb thought.
He looked really well tonight, which was great. But he looked scared. What got me the most was DD is 8.5 months and has learnt to say Granddad. Mum said to her "Where's Granddad" and DD flipped around toward him and elled "Granddad!!" and held her arms out to him. When that happened he started to cry and then I had to fight so darned hard not to cry either.
DD adores him so much, I mean she has been able to say Granddad for weeks and knows 100% who she means when she says it. But it looked hard for both him and DD because he had all these cables and stuff attached and DD wanted so desperately to cuddle him. He did give her cuddles but only as best he could with all the equipment.
I think that made him feel worse.
Sorry just needed the vent and don't want to be venting all over other places. No real point to my story I guess. Just needed to get those thoughts off my chest.
Sorry if its jibberish too, I haven't slept alot in days.