Last night....my husband and I....decided to stop trying NOT to have a baby! What I mean is, we've decided to let nature run it's course and whatever happens, happens! I'm so glad I have you in the bubhub world to 'talk' to as I can't say anything to anyone IRL!! (A few of you know me IRL, so just pretend you didn't see this! )

We can't tell anyone because they all think I'm about to go back to work full time (and hubby stay hoe to save $$) but we've made the decision that we're awful at saving/budgeting so we can't see us any better off financially next year than we are right now so we thought why wait! We LOVE our DS and we know it will be hard (I think it's hard at any age!) to add another but we sooooo want to!

So, I have to tell a little fib to work that DH can't find a part time job so no full time for me yet (technically 100% true at the moment) and just not give family/friends any updates.

The main person I'm worried about is my best friend who has been ttc for at least two years now She would usually be the first person I would run to with this news but I can't. I feel awful that we've been trying this whole year NOT to have a baby and that's all they really want Also, I know that I'll probably get pregnant very easy as I did last time so I don't want her to know how long we actually tried if that makes sense?

Anyway, feel free to join me in your secret ttc journey!! I feel better now getting that off my chest!!!!!!!!!!