Gahh! The government is stupid and has left me without choices. I cant find an independent midwife where I live and I dont even think that my area has a birthing center. The idea of going to hospital makes me want to cry. Everyone around me is pushing me to go have a doctors visit "because you are 13 weeks now and u should have had a scan last week." Because I dont have a midwife its hard to argue my case and reasoning to anyone. It's like "well you tried it your way and it didnt work, just give up and do it the normal way now." I cant really talk about it with my partner since the whole concept of homebirth brings a look of terror to his face. He says he will support me with it if I can get a midwife. This is the first time in this whole thing that I have actually been stressed about it. I know my baby is ok, I know I am ok, why cant people just trust my intuition the way I do?
Stupid Government for making it hard for Homebirthers!!