Well, this is just a vent really.
My older sister has physically and emotionally abused me since my earliest memory, not just normal sibling fighting but full blown abuse.
So, now we have had an argument and for once i actually stood up for myself...And now, I'm terrified she will retaliate to me standing up to her. I'm terrified for me, for my son, for my unborn baby... She has no conscience, she would not even bat an eyelid to hit me if my son was in my arms. So now I feel stupid for standing up for myself, because all I have done is punish myself by being too afraid to leave my house instead I'll sit here in tears, not because I have lost my 'sister' but because I feel like I've lost my life again from the fear of her.