I should be holding my perfect little baby in my arms but instead they will be empty and all I'm left with is a broken heart. Tomorrow I will plant a rose in honour of my lil angel and walk to the park with my DD to release one white balloon in the place that DD would have played with her sibling. I will look at the one photo I have of my beautiful lil angel and think about all the things my baby could have been and done. I will shed more than a few tears and feel extremely sorry for myself but I feel like tomorrow will be the one day I won't think about my ttc troubles and health issues it will all be about my baby because regardless if my baby is here or not I am my angels mummy. I was the only place my baby ever knew and i believe my angel knew how much love I had to give from the moment I found out I was pregnant for every moment of my angels short life and for every moment thereafter.
Always in my heart forever.