My DH and I have been ttc for #1 for almost 12months now. We desperately want our own little bubba. Last month I was diagnosed with PCOS, and this amongst a few other things is what Doc believes is making things dificult. I have an appointment with gyno in a month.
DH and I just celebrated our 1st wedding anniversary, t was lovely, we had night away and a romantic dinner. He is so supportive, loving and the most selfless man I know, I love him more than I could say. Lately I've started having sporadic moments of getting very cranky at him, and saying realy mean things that I regret and apologise for when I finaly get around to allowing him to calm me down. Once I finaly stop harasing him, I start at myself, remembering past regrets, worrying about weight, house work, uni work and eventually the ttc issue. He always always forgives me, and makes excuses for me like 'I know your realy stressed with uni at the moment'. He also tells me he thinks I'm gorgous, reminds me that I'm doing well with my studies, and reasures me that we will have a baby one day, and that when we do, I'll be an amazing Mum. He's perfect right? So why do I get angry with him?
I've never been an angry person, I've never had depression, and in fact I've always had a very lucky life and been blessed with an amazing family, group of friends and now have the best husband ever! So what on earth is my problem? Is this a symptom of PCOS or am I just looking for an excuse as to why I can just be a b*&^ every now and then?
Sorry about the novel.