Before the birth of my DD I was not one of those parents that had a set plan for what I was or was not going to do in terms of parenting, except when it came to breastfeeding.
I had a VERY quick labor and was sent home the next day even tho this was my first child. I had said I wanted to make sure I was ok with feeding before I was sent home, but I was made to feel like I was being silly worrying and I that I was doing fine and I should just go home.
I wasn't feeding ok, I thought the pain I had was just me getting used to feeding but it just got worse. For the first couple of weeks I was in tears every time I fed her, my partner who is very supportive would have to leave the room as it was so hard for him to see me in so much pain
With the help of my sister and a lactation consultant I am feeding without pain. She is now 12 weeks old and I am proud to say I have never had to give her formula but I am not what I would call comfortable.
I was told she has a small mouth and I find I have to hold her and my breast for the entire feed or it starts to hurt and also she can be very squirmy. Sometimes I can tell its wind but other times she will throw her head back or press her hand against my breast pulling my nipple out
I though this would be a nice time I would share with her but I am getting so upset and frustrated I feel horrible getting grumpy with her.