Feeling really bleh.

[heartjb]

I dont know what it is or what triggered it but I hate meeting up with my friends (or whoever Ive got left) and family, I drink and cry myself to sleep every night after DH has gone to bed. So relieved MIL is overseas atm (because I live witg her). Ive also started smoking again even though I hate it and its a disgusting habit. Pleaseplease dont judge me because Ive noticed majority of BHers seem very against smoking. I get all the important things done around the house but stuff like folding clothes I just leave on the sofa. I try and go out with DD to distract myself and not think too much. How did I end up like this? I feel so frustrated for no reason. Whats wrong with me? I also have no appetite but eat because I know I should. Like tonight for instance I cooked 2 minute noodles and sat on the kitchen floor and fed DD some dinner at the same time. I think I ate maybe half? Anyway I was thinking about talking to a doctor about it but it sounds so stupid and it doesnt seem like a big issue compared to others. Yeah I think Im done now. Might go have a hot shower while DD naps. Sorry to everyone who reads this. Its a waste of time.

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[squishie]

Massive hugs, I think you definitely should have a chat to your doctor. And your hubby too. (((hugs)))

[Theboys&me]

Not a waste of time at all. I think talking to your GP is definitely the best idea. I've felt like you describe in the past. It's a terrible feeling. I hope you can work through it quickly. (hugs)

[Purple Lily]

Definitley not a waste of time. I really do reccommend seeing your GP if youre feeling this way though. Those sorts of problems arent anywhere close to stupid, the way youre feeling is legitimate and seeing a GP will get you on the road to feeling better. Ive felt like that before and I know its a horrible feeling and I really did feel like my GP would be a waste of time but when I went anyway it was the best thing I did for my son, partner and me. Having a new bubba really does change you life and it's really easy to feel down about everything. No judgement here, we all have ways of coping but if you feel like those things arent working then a trip to the GP would help. You've taken the first step...its a big one...and that is you admit that something isnt right and you want to do something. A GP could even refer you to a counsellor who might be able to help you figure out what triggers your down moments. Again please don't feel like your feelings would be considered stupid compared to others, feeling down is horrible and you deserve to be happy and get help if you need and want it Good luck and feel free to pm me if you wanted somebody to talk to