I have read through some posts here and I am still trying to understand what I am experiencing. People are happy to talk about when they are pregnant, but miscarriage... Not one of my friends have experienced one, or if they have, they havent said.
I went to the OB on Thursday and expected to hear great news, but when he used his in room ultrasound machine, he questioned me about my dates... he could only see a gestational sac. I experienced some bright red bleeding after sex Wednesday morning, but only when I wiped and put it down to a sensitive cervix and on Thursday it was dark brown when I wiped. When I went to the GP, he said that was good as that was old blood.
Friday morning my Ob sent me for a Beta HCg and an ultrasound. They could only see a sac with an embryo inside externally measuring roughly 6w5d. They wanted to do an internal Ultrasound so they could check for a HB.
They didnt find a heartbeat and when it was over, I started bleeding bright red blood. Just when I wiped, but later that night I had a spot of blood on my undies.
Today I put a pad on and I have had more blood, it hasnt soaked the pad, but every time I wipe there is more.
I havent got out of bed the whole day. I dont know what to experience. I dont know if I want to experience anything.
I have been given time off work until Tuesday and I will have another Beta HCg blood check on Monday morning. My OB will have the results Tuesday morning.
I hate not knowing, what should I expect. Yesterday I was trying to maintain some level of hope, today I cant get out of bed in fear and disappointment.