PPH after first birth

[Bohobaby]

Hi there, I just wanted to share my story because I am thinking about have #2 but terrified it will happen again.

I went in labour normally 2 days before my due date. My waters broke with a huge gush at 830pm but I had no contractions. It was 10pm when we got to the hospital and still no pains. The midwives check my progress and said that I was in early labour. We lived 5 min drive from the hospital and because I still had no contractions I asked if I could go home until the contractions got bad. At 12am we got home and I had a shower and hopped into bed. I awoke at 3pm with my first painful contractions and by 7am they were nearly unbearable. For some reason I had myself convinced they were Braxton hicks and told DH I didn't need to go to hospital. At 730 DH times them as being 40 seconds apart and the me in the car still saying " I'm fine it's just false labour they will send me home!" haha
I got to the hospital and was already 6cms. I asked for an epidural. I was told it would be half an hour. 10 mins later I felt the need to push. I told the midwife and she said " don't push it's not time" I knew my body though and began to push. DH asked her to check and she did and I was 10cm! Too late for an epidural! Within 40mins of pushing Noah was born.
An hour after I was attempting to breastfeeding while my mum and DH looked on. All of a sudden I felt liquid gushing out of my vagina and bubble up over my thighs. I told mum and she lifted the blanket white faced. Next thing I knew there were doctors and nurses everywhere talking quickly to eachother. Noah was taken from me and then I was being shelled out of the room saying goodbye to my baby. I was hemorrhaging severely and there was talks of a hysterectomy. Lucky for me there was a doctor there trained in a new procedure called intrauterine balloon. I awoke at 5pm and had to lay on my back with tubes coming out of me draining blood for 24hours.
It was a traumatic experience and I swore I wouldn't have another child but lately DH and I have talk about having another and I really want to but I'm so scares it will happen again or worse It will happen while I'm pregnant or during the birth. Has anyone else suffered PPH and then went on to carry a second baby and deliver it naturally with no problems?
Any help would be appreciated as I'm so anxious about it.
Thank you xox

[Buttoneska]

Hey there, Im sorry you experienced such a frightening and horrible thing.

I myself am preggars with number 1 so not much personal experience to share, but I did have a friend who had PPH with her first bub. She was pregnant with her #2 when #1 was only a couple of months old (accident). She was petrified given her experience.

In the end the 2nd labour was perfectly fine. She had slightly heavier bleeding then perhaps a 'regular' birth but nothing like the first time and she felt ok about the birth in general.

Good luck with your decision, perhaps talking to a councellor about it could help; it was a traumtic experience so its perfectly natural to still be impacted by it.

Medically, I don't know what the 'odds' are like regarding it happening again.

[TripleTime]

I had PPH, there is no medical reason I can't have another pregnancy.

[Rose&Aurelia]

a sister of a gf had a quick 1st labour too and also had a PPH. She went on to have her 2nd within 18mths with no dramas other than very quick labour again... this time was under an hour. No PPH.

[Bohobaby]

Sorry for they late reply but thank you ladies for your responses! I'm actually (unexpectedly) newly pregnant! Still scared but optimistic everything will be ok thank you all again xxxx