peonies - thank you for your kind wishes. Hope you're okay.
Clementine - I hear you. Oh to be a person who just pops out a healthy baby like clockwork every 18 months or so.... Best of luck with today's blood test.
Zak - I was a wreck last night. DH's best friend just emailed with news that they were expecting their second. I was miscarrying when their first was born. I lost all perspective and took this as a sign of impending doom.
My scan is at 10.50am and I'm at work right now, thank goodness. Outwardly carrying on as normal as possible.
There's a voice inside me that says this is MY time and that after everything that has happened, could God please be kind and let this pregnancy go to term for DH and I? Just once? Please?
And then there's the me that has been down this road too many times already. I've got no eye makeup on and wore my largest wrap around sunnies to work. I've scheduled all my major decisions for before the US in case I fall apart and have to go straight home at lunch. Only thing I forgot was to chill a recovery bottle of champagne in the fridge last night.
Whatever the outcome, I will still live another day after this scan. I hope they will be the happy days I've been 'denied' these last 16 months but if not they will eventually be brighter days.
Take care everyone and sorry for the melodrama....
Here's lots of