DH and I have been TTC for almost 2 years. Sometimes more actively then not.
I had a Chemical Pregnancy in July last year but other then that there has been no other hints. A lot of our friend and family know where were trying and have been trying and are starting to get to the stage where they are suggesting that we look at IVF and the possibility of fertility Issues.
The thing is, we know why we aren't conceiving. DH has severe depression and just never seems to be in mood for the right days of the month. I can't blame it all on him as some time he is willing, but he has been that depressed I've gotten annoyed at him and just not wanted to be close to him. that isn't his fault it is mine for not being mindful.
It's just getting hard to respond when people ask. It's hard to tell people that is the reason, but at the same time we can't just glaze over and go yeah we are doing it when we're not.
I guess also I am just wishing that we could just knew exactly when to DTD to get the baby as it's too much pressure on him to try for 3 days in a more, if we can even get the right days. I don't seem to have a knack for reading OPKS for whatever reason and my Cycle doesn't tell me until AF weather it's going to be a 27, 28, 29 or 30 day cycle.
I do sometime think I should just give up on my idea of ever being a mother but it hurts so much to do that. It's also hurts that It seems every month when I get my AF someone else is telling me about their pregnancy.
I'm not sure if this is in the right area, but it's just a late night rant that I don't know where to put. Not at all what I planned for this thread.