i have accepted the fact that i dont have any friends. I have made many efforts and anyone who i mearly become close to, drops off like a dead fly.
Im 27 and have a 14mthd old DD who is my world. My DH is my best friend. I asked him if there is something wrong with me because i just cant "keep" a 'girl'friend. He said i am the best friend he has ever had.
I moved away from home and my 2 close freinds 5 years ago. We kept intouch for the first year then they fell off the face of the earth.
A freind i used to work with knew i had my bub's and was keen to visit, she told me when she'd be over to see bub's and me. So i got all prepared only to find she never turned up. I texted her saying "hey, r u still comming today?"...She wrote back..."think you have the wrong number. And That was that.
My mother's group was not the greatest success. In the end i realised i had nothing in common with these women except my daughter. They all returned to work and i have not heard from them in 4 months
I found a friend i knew when i was living in the city through a social website. We got along so well. We would PM eachother about complete randomness. She'd share her intimate problems and id share mine, just as girlfriends do, i guess. I told her i dont have freinds and it's great to be able to talk to her. I'd ask her for help and vice versa.
Then all of a sudden i got the cold shoulder.
Her last PM to me was: "some people need to get a life and stop telling me about their boring useless lives....or get a friend".....
I didnt reply, at first i thought it was a PM she sent to me by mistake. So i waited to see if she'd respond with anything like "oops!! sorry wrong person!!"....but no. It was intended for me. I dont know where i went wrong with that one.
Next was a freind i got to know thru DH. We became very close when i told her i was pregnant with DD. She was like a 2nd mum to me throughout my pregnancy. She would drop past and check in on me after i had DD, without me even asking! She was first at the hospital before family when i had DD. I asked how she found out so quick and she said thru work (she works with DH)
She told me she was pregnant with her 6th baby a month after i had my DD. She said i was the first she told! Since that day.....i was no longer important. The phone calls stopped. The visits stopped.
It got worse once she had her baby. I found out she had her DS 3 weeks later, which is fine with me. It's just that she was so in my face with my DD. Anyways, I could never catch her at home for a chat, if i PM'd her about how she is or whatever she wouldnt answer and instead ask about DD.
Now that we are TTC for our second, she is back on board wanting to know everything. To the point she asks if i have tested yet?
I dont know if i want her knowing about my personal stuff anymore, cos it only seems to matter when it suits her.
So, ive given up. I guess. Im a loner because I am over being ****ed over!
I have my wonderful supportive family, they just live a bit far away from us. I have my sister who lives on the other side of the country. We are very close.
I found out i was pregnant with our 2nd just yesterday. I am 5 weeks tomorrow. I was a bit sad i didnt have that special freind i could tell. So instead i msg'd my sister and told her. She called and we spoke for ages
I know i can always depend on my family. They will always be there. They wont flogg me off because im boring or uninteresting. They are loyal and honest.
I'm sorry if this has come off as if i feel sorry for myself. I dont.
Sometimes, life gets hard. I would love a friend i could catch up with and talk to on a regular basis, but i dont. I dont know what i do wrong with my friendships.
I guess starting over at making friends is hard, i have kind of lost alot of trust in who i open upto now because I never know how long they will stick around.
Thankyou for taking the time to read .