Going crazy in this little household. I'm quite convinced my hubby has aspergers. We have been together for 7 years now and every week he gets that little bit harder to love. In fact I breathe a sigh of relief when Monday comes and realise we have 'survived' another weekend with Daddy.
This weekend has been particularly tough as he was emotionally abusive to our 3 yo - he told him to get stuffed very loudly and aggressively when Ollie didn't want to do something his way. I said that was totally inappropriate and he didn't get what was so bad about behaving that way. Then he tapped me on the back of the head. I shouted that I regretted that he is the father of my children but thankfully he didn't hear as there is no going back from that, is there? He just makes me so angry.
We talked about it the next morning and he apologised for his behaviour (as he usually does the next day - though I'm not sure he really thinks he has done wrong) and said that he is really having trouble bonding with our son, that our son is totally out of control and undisciplined. He feels rejected by our son and unable to communicate with 'the monster'. He is talking about our 3 year old who is (suspected) autistic. I'm reading this and thinking 'what a ****' but we are so screwed up in the house that all I can think is 'he is finally communicating!!'
I hit the internet on father son bonding, autism, parenting and autism etc and I came across what can only be described as a light bulb article - http://www.aspia.org.au/pdf/AS_Marriage_brochure.pdf Why had this never occurred to me - that hubby has ASD.... maybe not a sociopath after all.
I feel sad and overwelmed because this just fits and I guess I'm on here now, telling this story, as I would love to reach out to others in similar situations that I can talk to and that might understand my day to day roller coaster ride. Always challenging but never really any fun.