I am 11 and a half weeks pregnant after having 3 miscarriages in 2011. The first was a missed miscarriage, after seeing a heartbeat but scan dates being out. The second was very early. The third was by far the most traumatic- we had regular scans- the first of which put me two weeks behind my LMP, so we knew from the outset things would not be good. Unfortunately, the baby continued to develop and we saw a very slow heartbeat which we watched slowly stop over a series of scans. It caused me incredible emotional pain and I know I still haven't dealt with it, but I haven't really felt ready to talk about.
This pregnancy has gone well so far. Good HCG levels in the first few weeks. Scans at 6 and a half and 8 and a half weeks showed great heart beats, and dates were pretty much spot on. I was offered another scan at 10 weeks but experienced so much grief and stress in the days leading up to the previous ones, I elected not to have another till the NT scan. My pregnancy symptoms have continued but they did in my previous pregnancies too. I have had no symptoms of a miscarriage but I didn't in my previous miscarriages either.
My NT scan is next Tuesday, and today the anxiety has kicked in. How do I keep calm? I have uni assignments due and I can't concentrate. I spend my time trying not to cry! What has worked for others? I know I should really see someone professional - I have no problem doing this, but I don't wish to bring up all the emotions over my previous losses when I am so busy and emotional already. Please help. xxx
I should add, we haven't told many people as we want to wait till 12 weeks so people actually congratulate us rather than worry about us. The missed miscarriage happened at 8 weeks, and that was the furthest we'd gotten since our successful first pregnancy in 2009. I really should have had a 10 week scan!