I want to hear from anyone diagnosed or think hey might have Post dramatic stress disorder,
I have 3 bubs, The first was the traumatic intervention vacuum posterior VB 10 years ago, 2nd was ok and 3rd was a csection recently because of injuries and fear from first birth. I always had negative thoughts about my births but only due to ongoing issues from tearing, and hearing others positive experiences triggered feelings but it didnt consume my thoughts.
A few weeks ago a friend had a baby and I had to visit her in birthing suite. I had been there in my pregnancy for monitoring and was ok.
This time I freaked out while waiting at the desk my heart was racing as the midwives bustled around chatting about epidurals, I looked at the whiteboard that had something written about vacuum extraction and felt dizzy. In the suite I had an out of body feeling and kept looking at the bed and seeing myself there. As I walked out a training midwife was learning about spotting a posterior baby, the very thing that caused my traumatic birth because the doctor let me push for 3 hours before calling another doctor who said baby was posterior and proceeded to tell off the first doctor in front of me! (bit of vent there)
Since then nightmares started, sometimes I am giving birth, other times a csection, but they seem to relate to not trusting the care. I wake up with a headache! During the day I am good as long as I dont see birth shows on TV or hear about someone giving birth. Im worried if the birth suite experience triggered something and if it might get worse.
Has anyone freaked out revisiting the hospital? Did it affect you after?
If and how you get past the thoughts, flashbacks?
Who if anyone helped you?
If you tried counselling, who did u go to? (midwife/counsellor)