My DD is 7 months old and the most precious and beautiful thing in the world! (All of us mums think that though )
Lately though, especially at night, I keep lying there looking at her and getting worked up about the possibility of ever losing her or something bad happening to her.
It's gotten to the point where I am comforted by the though that she doesn't sleep through the night, or sleep in her own cot/room so I am constantly aware of her. I like her sleeping next to me because I know she is right there, I hear every sound, feel every movement. I was sexually abused as a child so I think this might have something to do with it.
I spoke to my friend and she said she experiences the same thing, that it's just a mother's curse to constantly worry about the safety of your children..
I just love her so fiercely I think I would die if anything ever happened to her. But at the same time, I need to let her go a little bit as well. I won't be able to protect her from anything and everything, all I can do is my best. But there will always be external factors I can't control.