Gut Feeling...

**MyLittlePrincess** · 30-03-2012 10:27

it would be great to hear of others experiences in this situation....

i currently have 3 kids, youngest is just over 4mths... and is fully breast feed (sleeps throught the night thou) since giving birth.

i have suggested to DH that i maybe UTD, yesterday he is in shock as in to how it could of happend as we always had protection.

2 weeks ago i went to the doctors to have blood panel screened as i have been loosing alot of hair since giving birth (just this week it has slowed down) and for weight gain (loss all baby weight by xmas and put 10kg back on by the end of feb) i never ot a call from the doctors for my results but now i am wondering i never got the call due to the fact i will figure it out soon enough!

i am feeling just so sick of thinking about and is really doing my head in... my boobs dont feel sentive or any different when BF so i am feeling hopeful i am not!

my gut feeling is telling me i am UTD and all i am seeing is $$ mainly stressed out on in investing in a bigger car. We get no help from family tax A & B once we do our taxes so there isn't any bonus money for us either

AHH...

i am taking my head out of the sand tonight when DH gets home to take a pregancy test, i just cannot look at a + by myself, i'll need his support (i know he will be in shock about it, terminition is a no no for us), i would be clueless in regards to telling my parents, they will be shocked and OMG my inlaws.. just will just have negitives things to say behind our backs. but i know when facing them to tell them we will be proud and excited expecting our 4th just to not give them ANY satifaction it wasn't planned! My concern is i guess i am feeling very selfish in my concerns as all i am seeing it in the light of a financial perspective... & i think concerning more then the $$ is how others would view our family, being this big as there age gaps are close. i would love to have more kids but not right now, especialy not so close together in age. i know there are others who have it toughter then us but i am still so so scared

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is it wrong of me to feel so down about it? any advice out there?

**LilMuffin** · 31-03-2012 10:21

You are not wrong to be worried about it, it can be natural to have reservations at first. The first thing you need to do is test you may be stressing about nothing. I wish you all the best.

**bokkie_wotwot** · 31-03-2012 11:17

Did you end up testing? good luck trust your instincs

**Eko** · 31-03-2012 16:15

You might be having a bub close to another. You might have people who will judge you. But what you will also have is a bub that you love and loves you.
Don't worry about what other people think or say, that's their problem not yours

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At the end of the day, you'll make whatever happens work. If you're not pregnant then that's good news stress wise because the finances won't be such an issue for you. But if you ARE it's GREAT news, because you'll have another member of the family to love and watch grow.

**bohogirls** · 31-03-2012 18:22

I hope all has gone well with the test!

If your previous pregnancy had've been twins you would've made it work somehow, this is like almost twins (I'm telling myself this since finding out I was 23 weeks and had no symptoms - I put it all down to Xmas and breastfeeding and exhaustion from my 13mo.

Big families are happy families regardless of money.

As for judgey relatives - keep your head up and iwatery make you feel uncomfortable, reduce the time you spend with them , it's your choice and you are in control!

All the best.

**waterlily** · 31-03-2012 18:28

I think you should test first and stress out when you have some "facts" good luck hun.

**MyLittlePrincess** · 02-04-2012 13:59

thanks for your kinds words...

well i done the test faint + so i can only guess it is going into a mc as it should of been as dark as the 1st line as i would be approx 7weeks by now i dont know whether to be happy or sad. (i wish i had waited another week to test as now knowing this info has made me more upset)

DH surprised me as he was very supportive and wasn't even as selfish as me in regards to $$. i think more that shocked me as before i done the test he had already planned on what car to upgrade to, which i never would of expected him to be thinking of and what assest to sell off in order to buy the new car. ahh... i've told him it looks like a mc and will wait it out a week before going to the doctor. have to say he was reilefed and upset at the same time...

i guess things do happen for a reason, whether it is good or bad.

its werid, that it was to be an unplanned baby but is also going to be sadly missed.

i would like to thank you again for your kinds words in this mixed emotion situation...