it would be great to hear of others experiences in this situation....
i currently have 3 kids, youngest is just over 4mths... and is fully breast feed (sleeps throught the night thou) since giving birth.
i have suggested to DH that i maybe UTD, yesterday he is in shock as in to how it could of happend as we always had protection.
2 weeks ago i went to the doctors to have blood panel screened as i have been loosing alot of hair since giving birth (just this week it has slowed down) and for weight gain (loss all baby weight by xmas and put 10kg back on by the end of feb) i never ot a call from the doctors for my results but now i am wondering i never got the call due to the fact i will figure it out soon enough!
i am feeling just so sick of thinking about and is really doing my head in... my boobs dont feel sentive or any different when BF so i am feeling hopeful i am not!
my gut feeling is telling me i am UTD and all i am seeing is $$ mainly stressed out on in investing in a bigger car. We get no help from family tax A & B once we do our taxes so there isn't any bonus money for us either AHH...
i am taking my head out of the sand tonight when DH gets home to take a pregancy test, i just cannot look at a + by myself, i'll need his support (i know he will be in shock about it, terminition is a no no for us), i would be clueless in regards to telling my parents, they will be shocked and OMG my inlaws.. just will just have negitives things to say behind our backs. but i know when facing them to tell them we will be proud and excited expecting our 4th just to not give them ANY satifaction it wasn't planned! My concern is i guess i am feeling very selfish in my concerns as all i am seeing it in the light of a financial perspective... & i think concerning more then the $$ is how others would view our family, being this big as there age gaps are close. i would love to have more kids but not right now, especialy not so close together in age. i know there are others who have it toughter then us but i am still so so scared .
is it wrong of me to feel so down about it? any advice out there?