Overnight my partner and I have decided to split up. It was mutual mostly so I just can't believe how devastated I am. I knew we had problems & I was really hoping to address them, but upon seeing him last night (we don't live together) I asked if he was happy: no and then if he was with me just because of our daughter and the silence was deafening. I knew we were unhappy but I didn't know the foundation of our relationship was solely that we had a child together. He said he loves me but it's just not enough and that we have nothing in common besides our daughter (somewhat true, but I never saw this as an issue). My issues with him were that he was never around and last night he told me that was because my company wasn't all that 'bearable' because I was at him about the fact that he was never around - kind of like a chicken or the egg situation.. Did the problems start with him not being around, or did it start with me being at him for not being around enough.
It's 6am & I've barely slept, can't stop crying & have all of those post break up thoughts, wondering if it's the right thing, wondering what the hell I am going to do & mostly, am I going to be alone forever? In my head I know that things do get better & you move on from the hurt, but all I want to do to get over it is never see him again. I feel like such a failure that I couldn't make this work - my daughter is only 12 weeks old.