I was really looking forward to 30, to be honest it was a bit of a let down.

I've always felt that turning 30 would mean I suddenly grew up, would be in control, comfortable & cofident in myself. Unfortunately I was still as disorganised, self critical & indecisive as ever.

Now, facing 36 in a few months, I have accepted this is just who I am & not some satge I will grow out of. Since coming to this conclusion life is just getting better & better. If only I could get a bit more organised with the finances.