Thanks for your support girls..
Yes I do feel a lot stronger about things now. Esp. as I know I'm doing the right thing legally.
Since I posted that last message he's emailed my solicitor (and cc'd me) that he tried to kill himself and was in hospital for mental illness etc.. but it's okay as he's not mentally ill gez it's like watching a car crash in slow mo..
I have told my solicitor thanks for the info but I'll take it from here.. they said 'thanks .. oh and that's another $200 for the phone call' ugh! so now i owe them $700. I told them I'd pay it in stages so I can afford it and they said that was okay. I just have to swollow that cost.
He has emailed me about 4 more times in the last few hours.. one saying that everything he said on the phone that night to me (about trying to kill himself) he never said and he would swear on the bible and I can't prove he said that etc etc.. then others saying 'yep that phone call might have been a lie' .. omg I don't know what to think frankly? his lies are so intense.
My solicitor said that if he did try to kill himself and did spend time in a mental hospital (which he also told her) then that is a concern and enough to ask for supervised access till we have some info from his psychologist.
however, if he's lied about the whole thing and perhaps doesn't even have a psychologist at all or hasn't disclosed everythign to them then that is a equal concern and warrents the same action.
so I feel confident I can still keep saying that I need some evidence about what's going on with him.. but if it's all a lie I guess he won't be able to provide that??
In one of his emails he threatend to leave and move further away and I couldn't help thinking 'yes please!!'... I wonder if he will? he's very very unstable but I'm having trouble getting more than lies and rambling to both me and the solicitor. either way I'm going to stick it out and stand by the legal advice I have and hope he gets a solicitor himself so we can get something in writing that either a) he lied about it all or b) he's getting help for what ever mental illness is going on.
either way.. taxing, tiring, expensive and I have a cold today (no wonder!).
"each of these, my three babies, I will carry with me, for myself, I ask no one else will be, mother to these three, and of course, I'm like a wild horse but there's no other way I could be, water and feed are not tools that I need, for the thing that I've chosen to be" Sinead O'Connor says it better than I can.