Hi Neb, welcome
This is a great place for support.
I think most of us can understand your whole "I had given up on ever having a baby comment". I am the same most of the time too, then I just cry endlessly and get angry, so I guess I really havent given up.
Ive just had my third transfer too. Two embies on board as of Monday, and that is the furthest we have ever gotten to. Its got to be our turn some time soon.
Often I find that being negative about things is how I protect myself from this process and the approaching "advanced maternal age" thing, that I never thought I would be labelled with.
Fingers crossed for both of us!
The ladies on here are great for support!
PS girls, clinic texted, we have another frosty from the last cycle, so two on board and two on ice - OMFG!! From 6 eggies!!! I dont believe it. Now please stick little twin beans!