firstly, big hugs to you
i know i feel extremely betrayed by my body sometimes.
while its doing the right thing and making my uterus wonderfully nutritious and warm for baby, it failed to notice that baby had stopped growing 3 weeks ago. found out no hb 1st march/8 week scan & dr finally wants to do d&c tomorrow. i dont know how to feel. i wanted my body to do it naturally, and not have the worry of surgery complications - short or long term- but having it drag out as long as it did,waiting everyday to see if im going to have the mother of all periods and finally lose my little peanut, while trying to soldier on and do the daily grind, was agonising. in one way im glad im off to hosp tomorrow morining, other side im really dissapointed my body failed me again. being my first pregnancy ever (&IVF) im ****ed off its happening, but: at least we got this far. and if bubs had survived my body is doing everything else right.
ive been waiting 12 days, and everyday af doesnt come, and this miscarriage doesnt happen by itself, is another day waiting and hurting, and i agree, its torture. need the closure to be able to move on and start again.
sorry for butting in your thread but i needed to vent and i feel what you were going through.